Elvanna Raine ~ Sui Generis

Ni Hao to The Cast of Mr Siao!

2009-04-27T17:25:00.009+08:00

Proudly introducing to you,
The Cast of
Mr Siao's Mandarin Class...

Ling Tang aka Shark, (whom I've nickanamed "Tang Yuan" ) is actually super super sweet, she's always laughing, making her the most adorable and usually the silliest one on set. Loo Aye Keng plays my "che che", Phoenix. She just comes up with the funniest things at the most random moments and cracks us up big time, you won't even know what hit you!

The "Handsome" Steve Yap your typical boy next door character, down to earth and naive. And of course, there's me! I play someone who's sweet, dreamy, ditzy, constantly happy for no reason, and pretty much gets confused by everything. SO not like me....

Literally our "class clown", Alvin Wong has the energy of a turbo-charged bunny and sometimes he's just so funny that you actually wanna strangle him... Ah Liang plays "Don Juan", a character that's so cute and annoying all at the same time...

Cindy Chen is hilarious! She plays the slightly "uptight" secretary Ms. Q, Chye is our Boss, a man who believes in his values and his dreams, never forgetting his roots, and Soo Wincci plays the mysterious Sophia...

Last but not least, my childhood idol (^.^) Auguste Kwan, is our endearing Mr Siao - passionate, sincere, loves his job and is determined to be the best Mandarin teacher ever!

Auguste is without a doubt a very interesting person, his jokes can be SO lame that you end up laughing at him out of pity... Tsk tsk tsk.... Some teacher huh?
I'm just kidding - he's actually very funny & friendly, albeit in a very quirky way. Very health-conscious too, and OMG - This man CAN reallllly EAT!!! He almost broke MY record. Hmm. Not bad.....

Mr Siao's Mandarin Class is on every Wednesday at 9pm on NTV7, but if for some bizarre & crazy reason, you actually miss an episode, don't you fret - you can log on to www.ntv7.com.my and you'll be able to catch up on all the previous episodes!

Thanks to everyone for all the great feedback since our debut last week, your encouragement & support means the world to us, very heartwarming .....

Don't forget to join us every Wednesday on NTV7 at 9pm, we'll see u there!

如果你願意給他機會，你可以跟他叫車....

2009-04-02T13:23:00.003+08:00

0926-080-123

Sorry to those who don't read Chinese/Traditional Chinese!

愈是天冷，愈是景氣差，愈顯得勇敢面對逆勢的人的可貴。我們對無法撐過去、選擇結束生命的人感到惋惜，卻對那些咬緊牙關、迎向艱困挑戰的人，打從心底佩服。

他叫蔡榮釗，從事駕駛工作長達卅年，工作勤奮，事母至孝，民國九十二年他開灰狗巴士，每天開車十數小時，任勞任怨，但老闆不給休假，鐵打的身體終究耐不住，終於在未曾闔眼的第廿九小時的北上路段，閉上眼睛，追撞前方拖板車，幾乎將他的身體攔腰截斷，也開啟他不幸的人生。

● 雙腳斷了，老婆跑了，老母還是得養...

　送往醫院後，他的性命從鬼門關撿回，肚破腸流縫回去了，腳部傷口卻不斷感染，導致必須截肢，成為可怕夢魘，截到最後雙腿都沒了，「截肢七次，現在連屁股都沒了！」

不成人樣，老天卻不同情他，老婆落跑，醫院不願承認疏失，灰狗巴士只願給他廿萬元撫恤金。兩個在讀國小的孩子沒人要，連社會局都逼他放棄監護權，孩子得丟給別人養.

" 這我不能接受，他們又不是孤兒，哪個單位會接受？到別人家我也不放心，這個年紀，可以發生的事太多。" 社會局的關懷，卻變成在他的傷口灑鹽── "你沒有能力撫養他們! "

曾經求助立委們，包括李慶安，但都無法給他一個公道，更別提實質幫助，雙手一攤（聽到這裡我簡直不敢置信，不知要慘到怎樣，這些大人才肯幫忙？我真是涉世未深啊）醫院還急著把他趕出去……

還有更慘的嗎? 有. 他的大哥大姊, 不肯在他養病期間幫他, 也不肯幫他撫養他們自己的八十歲老母，還在他養病期間推過來推過去的，他終於看不過去，牙關一咬，決定自力更生 ── 開計程車。

他用貸款方式買了車，油門、煞車、離合器都改裝成由手操作──不要驚訝，他真的沒有雙腳，也沒屁股了，但人家還是可以開車謀生，不但如此，車子內外弄得乾乾淨淨的，一絲不苟，非常專業。

●一天一個三明治裹腹....

　但是，這世道還是要欺負他。早餐他可以自己在家做個三明治，但中餐、晚餐就麻煩了，一開始店家還勉為其難送到他車上給他，後來人家給他臉色看，不再給他方便，他也不想給人添麻煩───就一天一餐吧，也好，減少上廁所的負擔。

晚上回家，先打電話請母親推輪椅到門口，讓他可以進家門，梳洗過後，他就睡輪椅，陪在母親旁邊。母親生病怎麼辦？送到醫院沒問題，但要他下車陪老人家就沒辦法，只要千拜託萬拜託請大哥或大姊過來一趟，「人都幫他們送到醫院了，總不能教不識字的老人家一個人在醫院打轉吧？」醫院不是有義工？問題是，他連下車都不方便啊？有幾次到台北縣政府陳情，到了門口，想請人推輪椅過來給他，但為了停車問題，他又被趕走了。

好不容易兩個孩子都讀到國中、高中，適逢叛逆期，他管不動，老人家也無法管，女兒離家出走，他去報案失蹤，但警察也不受理，「就算我們幫你找回來了，她如果又跑了怎麼辦呢？」

碰到一個自稱「中天新聞」的記者，花了一天拍攝他的故事，也弄了一個戶頭，最後只給了他三千六百元，也就沒下聞 …… 聽到這邊，各位作何感想呢？

他不是個軟弱的人，要是軟弱，他就不會出來開計程車了，但形勢比人強，人情冷暖總是現實，很多事情你以為很荒謬，你以為現在的社會很進步，很文明，可是它就還是個吃人的社會，換作是我，大概只能以淚洗面，又不敢自殺，只好成天躲在家等死吧。

● 別人不幫我，就自己來吧！

　我不喜歡濫用同情心，就像美國那位木匠在高速公路邊舉牌，請大家給他工作一樣，他說：「我不喜歡被施捨的感覺，但我有工作能力，你如果有需要，請給我一個機會為您服務。」

● 蔡榮釗的心態也是這樣吧。

一個人的品質，跟他受多少教育無關，跟他的前世今生無有沒有關我們不知道，但碰到這種倒楣事，他選擇了堅強，這就是一種難能可貴的品質。他跟我說話時，態度溫和有禮，沒半點誇張，最後只表示說不下去了，滿腹委曲滿到喉嚨了，滿了……

如果，你願意給他機會，你可以跟他叫車, 台北縣: 0926-080-123

如果，你方便帶一個三明治或點心給他，請用和譪的態度對待他，不要擺出施捨或餵狗的感覺，我猜「我請你吃一個很好吃的東西」是很好的開頭，「這是我吃剩下的」這類話就不必了，雖然是出於好心。這種事我也不擅長，總之考驗各位的智慧了. 天氣很冷，有時也需要搭計程車出門，他的車是很溫暖而乾淨的，人也很好。

別要求看人家的腿，也別問人家怎麼大小便。拜託!

他跟我說，上個月，兩個同在開計程車的友人，因為繳不起車貸而燒炭自殺了，沒有見報，沒有上電視. 我更是無言... 比起他沒了雙腳，還繼續苦撐，我只能說：「你太強了！」

此人就像一面鏡子，看看他，再想想自己，如果是我，我做得到如他一半的堅強嗎？我夠珍惜現身邊的一切嗎？我能不感恩嗎？蔡大哥靦賟樂觀的微笑，旁邊特製的杯架放著他一天的水，他不敢多喝因為上廁所不方便，蔡大哥的車內，非常乾淨整齊.

還有更值得一提的：在 97年9月11日還在車上撿到100萬送到警察局，他的朋友笑他傻：為什麼不自已留起來，他說遺失錢的人一定很擔心著急，雖然他很需要錢，但是他不能那麼自私，後來對方才包6000元紅包答謝他．他就已經夠開心的，新聞有播出，但對他沒有幫助，尤其人是容易遺忘的！

(民國97年9月11日拾獲現金100萬，送交警局的拾獲物收據)

This is just to remind us to persevere no matter what... I admire the ones with the courage and determination to hold on to their dreams and soldier on. Even with endless obstacles, life still has to go on. Giving up is easy, but then what would life be when you slide through it without a fight?

elvanna
2009

Joyous Awakening - Eclipse by Sonny San

2009-03-31T21:58:00.001+08:00

First of all, I'd like to say a big 'HI' to all of you - Missed you all!!! I've been so busy that I haven't had much time to do anything, no time to sleep, eat, buy groceries, let alone blogging! Not complaining though, coz to be honest, I do miss the busy and hectic schedule and I'm glad it helps make my days less dull! Anyway, just wanted to pop in for a quick hello and a throw u lot a little bit of my latest news and updates. Apparently I've been featured in most of the local papers for the last week or so, but I didn't get to see an actual article until yesterday, and I think I only managed to find 2 out of 3 interviews, ha! More than enough for me, not too shabby wooooooo ~~~

I mentioned in my older blog that I did a photo shoot for Eclipse, with their whole Spring & Summer line, and well lo and behold - here you go!

A cover & a 2 page spread on "The Star" , titled "Joyous Awakening" - This rolls out the welcoming red carpet for award winning Fashion Designer Sonny San & his clothing label Eclipse, as their Spring/Summer 2009 collection is revealed!

Hope you liked the pics, don't forget to have a look at the actual article online!

Joyous Awakening

Lotsa Lovin,

elvanna x x x

~ Thoughts In A Sui Generis Mind ~

2009-02-02T06:13:00.000+08:00

Love. Soul. Hate. Joy. Falling. Laughter. Eternity. Angelic. Innocence. Doubt. Fear. Foolish. Fun. Live. Experience. Vanity. Waste. Feel. Happiness. Belief. Assume. Share. Jealousy. Growth. Listen. Hope. Adore. Fake. Ignorance. Empty. Dreams.

Distance. Kisses. Fantasy. Desire. Truth. Justice. Patience. Courage. Acceptance. Reliable. Conceal. Vague. Ingenue. Gullible. Admire. Distance. Quixotic. Ennui. Perseverance. End. Cherish. Future. Ignorance. Care. Rage. Isolation. Distinctive.

Ingenuity. Gain. Vision. Resist. Try. Motivation. Rivalry. Ashamed. Oblivion. Disgusted. Earnest. Bliss. Overwhelm. Loss. Touch. Sensitivity. Time. Aimless. Reborn. Wondering. Consciousness. Trivial. Escape. Muse. Definition. Intensity.

Saviour. Pessimistic. Stupidity. Remember. Adapt. Diabolical. Survival. Obscure. Extraordinary. Solitary. Brutal. Deception. Attention. Give. Weak. Despise. Seek. Friendship. Balance. Suffer. Ready. Doubt. Open. Hollow. Emancipated. Choices.

Façade. Crave. Ponder. Suspicious. Addiction. Helping. Arcane. Capricious. Sincere. Death. Equality. Denial. Affection. Power. Substance. Caged. Ribald. Creative. Transparent. Think. Companionship. Paralyzed. Receiving. Grateful. Sanity. Indifferent.

Will. Pathetic. Vehemence. Righteous. Disastrous. Introverted. Frail. Inadequate. Dignity. Cadge. Frigid. Innocence. Versatility. Hide. Loving. Jaded. Alive. Apathetic. Intoxication. Listless. Relent. Weary. Searching. Grief. Learn. Attraction. Vulnerable.

Answers. Cunning. Wary. Fairness. Sacrifice. Worry. Peace. Judgmental. Luster. Conniving. Limitless. Transformation. Cruel. Present. Morbid. Articulate. Connection. Irksome. Tears. Hear. Release. Spirituality. Cynical. Visualise. Smile. Smitten.

Defeated. Blinded. Surreal. Obtrude. Selfishness. Guarded. Empyrean. Genuine. Lust. Betrayal. Welcoming. Envy. Agony. See. Forget. Hostility. Repetition. Questions. Skittish. Emptiness. Absorb. Mesmerised. Equilibrium. Warmth. Juvenile.

New. Optimism. Naive. Aura. Pain. Sweet. Euphoria. Tenderness. Pursue. Unique. Soft. Rapture. Lost. Understanding. Appreciation. Deprive. Pride. Generous. Presume. Trust. Faith. Found. Prepared. Changed. Recognised...

In case u were wondering, yes, sometimes my mind does think like that, very random, but it saves time with the grammar and the whole "explanation"! Hahahaha.... It's a good and non-violent way to vent.

>>> This just crossed my mind out of nowhere just now, so I'm just gonna share it with u, whether you like it or not. >>>

Although the whole "tough guy" act is needed at certain times to balance the Ying & Yang (I just call it Right & Wrong, hehe), but the way I see it, it's really just one person giving the other person a chance for an ego boost, the feeling of "power", not make them "lose face", etc..., just so it can get them to shut the *eff* up...

But, there are times when I do see the necessity to let the other person...erm...win...?!? To take the initiative step back. I think the word "compromise" sounds much better actually. And the compromising will help us maintain the equilibrium of sanity. Provided that all is WITHIN REASON!!!

I am not a babysitter/tuitor/sex provider on stand-by/relationship counsellor/mother/cleaner/PA/girlfriend/arm candy/party friend. But low and behold - As long as I am appreciated and I don't feel taken for granted, I can easily handle all of that. It's easy when your heart is really in it!

*Pls note that the above comment about being "on stand-by", is strictly just a figure of speech! ;p lol*

"Just don't cross the line, or I will have no choice but to punish you."

I need some sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep.................

What I see...then analyse

2008-05-28T01:41:00.005+08:00

~ 也是情歌 - Don't Doubt It! ~

昨晚竟然有人問我, 如果一首情歌它的感覺是屬於比較開朗的，節奏也是輕快點的, 是不是就沒有那些句句催淚的 love song 來的感人...

我本來想跟他說, 一首歌能不能夠讓人心裡有感覺, 是不能這樣就決定的, but in the end 我什麼都沒說, 因為我想他也是不會懂的.

It's strange, some people are just unable to comprehend the basic idea of having passion. I used to think that everyone was passionate, whether blatantly or subconsciously, maybe even knowing it but insecure by the powers of their own feelings. Not anymore though. I've come to realise that in this day and age, instead of being more open and comfortable with one's own feelings, people are actually closing in on themselves more, as if showing any emotion will make them look weak and inadequate.

The best you can get out of them is probably just raw, savage-like competitiveness, and of course, mind games and deception comes hand in hand with that. They pretend to be full of compassion and sensitivity, but after a while, you see through that pretentious facade. It's sad how they can go on in life that way, day after day. It must be mentally exhausting. In the end, you lose your own sense of self. In other words, they start to lose their way, their grip slackens, and they end up stuck in between being a two-faced clown, and a half-decent human being.

When you really pay attention, you'll see how many of these wretched souls are wandering amongst us. Sometimes you don't even have to look, when their expiry date comes, they will eventually present themselves to you, whether you like it or not. They don't anger me, and to be honest I cannot really bring myself to resent them either, because I see that kind of mentality and behaviour as a defect in which they have no control of. To say I pity them would be too condescending and definitely unfair, but I do feel a certain amount of helplessness and despair when I see what they've turned into, which I sometimes think is probably brought on by how they feel too, and the vibe they give off.

It feels like they are acting out because it's really their inner cry for help; a very typical diagnosis indeed, but it is only typical because most of the time, that is exactly the reason why. There really isn't much that anyone can do to help them, unless they themselves are willing to acknowledge the fact as well, and open to so called 'therapy'. Which in plain English means simply "open to a proper conversation and taking down your defenses."

唉... 說的比做的容易, 這個誰會不知道呢? 但是常常得應付這種人, 真的會把自己的腦袋瓜給累掛的! 還好樂觀的個性可以把很多有的沒的都看的淡一點, 不然就更慘了!

" You have nothing if you don't have faith; It comes free and it comes easy, so hold on to it and trust it. Faith and belief is what makes us, therefore it can never break us. "

Elv.Raine 汪芷榆

February 2008 - Taipei

~ My Guardian Angels ~

2008-05-28T01:37:00.003+08:00

Pleasant Words & Canorous Music

Actually, originally I wanted to add my friend’s song to this blog entry, but it seemed a bit too depressing, so I’ve removed it. But somehow, writing my thoughts with good music in the background makes everything seem just a little bit more soothing. Not that my words are jagged in any way, I just like the mellow backdrop. I guess it's a bit unorthodox to start my first blog this way, since I didn't really plan on any specific topic when I was playing around with this whole website thing. But seriously, does anyone really care? So far this question is completely irrelevant because I am not planning to make this blog entry public. Not yet, anyway. I can see the contradiction in my actions; I always have so much to say, to express, to write, so much inside of me, that at more emotional moments, I even have the urge to pour my heart out to the world. Yet right now, I feel a little bit intimidated by opening myself up. I think it's strange, but understandable though. Whatever I have written in the past, whether it's a song, a poem, a chapter in my book, or even just a simple diary entry, it has always been 'mine'. I talk about the rough concept and idea to some friends, but none of them have really seen the real deal. None of them know what I really write...what they know is what they can only imagine, using nothing but the bits and pieces of information I choose to divulge.

Everyone has their own kind of idea, some take me seriously, and some don't. I can tell. Some immediately think that writing a book or writing lyrics to a song is very impressive, and they make it seem as if I'm already published! Whereas, I'm only half way through, and the editing looks like it will go on forever, therefore, I cannot even foresee the day it will be completed. Not even me. To me, it is more than just writing. Anyone can write. To me, it is more like expressing myself, my feelings, my pain and my struggles. The pen and paper won't judge me, and I can go on and on and on if I wanted to. I let everything out like a bursting volcano of feelings, because sometimes, my pen and my paper are the only ones I can really 'talk' to.

This is what my close friends will refer to as 'insecurity', which I can't exactly deny. Other than not having enough faith in myself, I lack the true yearning for success, deep in my heart. To 'want' something is clearly very different from just having that 'ambition' in your head, toying around with ideas, overflowing with endless thoughts and fantasies, because I know, that is simply self deception. But do all those people out there, who choose to judge others know, that it is not always easy to have a dream, and yet really be able to accomplish it? If you are a slacker, then there's no one to blame, but sometimes no matter what you do, how hard you work, you just stay stuck, and when that happens, it discourages me. Optimism is one of my main good traits, but I am only human after all. If I constantly tell myself that everything will be okay and perfect, even when I am penniless and homeless, then I think that mentality is no longer optimism, but naivety. It's healthy to worry, it's alright to dwell. That's just the way life is, for everyone, not just me... As long as you don't live in sorrow and waste yourself, then there will always be hope. It may not be what I want, but hey, I'd rather have something that is 2nd best than to have nothing at all!

Happiness does not come from perfection, it comes from the unavoidable imperfections in life that you and I both need, in order to learn and grow. I've come to realise that it is always the less desirable matters in life that make me appreciate the other experiences I have had to go through, and the people I have met along the way. These beautiful souls always seem to come at a time when I need them the most, so I know for a fact that I am blessed, that someone IS definitely watching out for me, and keeping my heart alive with the love of these unsuspecting guardian angels. I do, however, constantly remind myself not to take them for granted though, because everyone deserves to be appreciated. Who knows, maybe to them, I'M the guardian angel sent here to be a part of their lives! :) Maybe all the people around us will one day play a special role on our lives, we just don't know. But it doesn't matter. We don't have to know, we just have to be grateful and happy, no one is doomed unless they want themselves to be.

How amusing it is, that I always seem to get stuck with a problem, only to end up clearing up my own doubts and answering all my previously endless questions about life. So, I guess that means, in my heart, I can always find a way to get through the obstacles in life, because the solutions and answers have been in my heart and mind all along, I just had to listen closely... That is why writing is such a great thing. I forget that this is my problem, and when you jump out of that ditch, everything seems so much clearer and less complicated. If only I had the heart and soul to write more often, like I did before. Where has my passion gone? Where is my stimuli? I have yet to find out what truly inspires me. Is it love? Loss? Sadness?

Look at life: The questions keep coming and the answers are always having a hard time keeping up. That's how I learn, I suppose!

Elv.Raine 汪芷榆

2/2/2008 - Taipei

There will always be a time when you ask yourself...

2008-03-16T01:42:00.000+08:00

...... What Else Is There?

Well ~~~
This pretty much sums up everything in life... There will always be questions, but there won't always be answers. Some questions are better left unanswered, and not all answers are the ones we wanna hear.

I personally like to have questions, and occasional doubts. What's life without the excitement of searching? The endless quest for success, love, acknowledgment, truth, acceptance....it's what we need to live life. If I had all the answers, I'd be SO DIABOLICALLY BORED. I won't even be able to ask myself "So, should I get McDs or Pizza or just go straight to dessert?" Now THAT will be the tragic beginning to a diagnosis of a severe & curious case of the rare & violent "Lack-of-Junk-Food Depression-OMFG Syndrome". And starvation too. Noooooooo!!!!!!

*ahem* ..... sorry didn't mean to shout... .

I love the fact that I seriously am unable to stay upset for long. Even if I wanted to, I can't. Can't be angry at anyone or anything for long either ...but that doesn't mean you can upset me and just get away with it! Coz before I stop being mad, I'll give you one helluva lecture/ass-kicking first!

Anyways, It's all good baby, it's alllll good. At least it is right now. With all the craziness in this world, who knows what will happen tomorrow? Certainly not me. Phew!

Love,

Elvanna xxx